Hey guys I'm Shaye.
I had a spontaneous Kundalini awakening over 10 years ago and I never knew what it was until 5 months ago. My health has been very poorly for so long, but now I know what was causing it, I'm hoping I'll be able to finally free myself of all this pain and suffering.
I've known now that is it Kundalini for the past 5 months and I have been going through a very tough time with it as I'm sure many others have. I'm wondering, are many people on here chanting mantras or doing any worship of deities?
I have found a spiritual teacher and she mentioned that it is crucial to do these things. Along with giving up alcohol and meat if I can, because of the dense energy it carries. I'm extremely energy sensitive and I'm getting attacked a lot by entities which is annoying. They are trying to stop my kundalini energy from ascending and doing what it is supposed to do. Are any other people on here dealing with this issue?
My soul seems to have wanted to clear more than 1000 past lives by the look of it. I have been releasing so much when I surrender to the energy and I still don't feel any bit better health wise or emotionally.
None of my friends or family have any idea what I'm going through so it would be nice to be able to talk to others on here if anyone would like to have a talk about our journeys and the weird and whacky situations that seems to come with this path. All of this is so new to me and it can get quite overwhelming with all that my spiritual teacher is telling me to do, it's a complete life change. And of course my ego is putting up one he'll of a fight along the way to stop me.
There is no pattern to my blockages being released, it can be in my root one minute and then up in my crown and then solar plexus. Its very scattered. I'm hoping that I will reap the benefits of all these blockages being removed soon so I can feel happiness and healthy again.
If anyone has any tips on how to silence the ego that would be great.
Does anyone here communicate with th eneey an speak to it?
Goddess Kali an Durga show up in many of my healing sessions. Along with Christ and St Michael. All of this is still so very strange to me so i hope other's may be on a similar journeyas mysef so we can talk about all of this.
Alan: "The ego is so clever and can pop in anywhere".
You should consider three frequencies - infinity is the unity; one is the person; and zero is a subatomic particle. If you are a mind vibrating in those three, and making sense of these, either by philosophy or sensitive abilities, you have to see that each of them has a function. An electron cannot avoid forming patterns of electricity, you cannot avoid being a person and the collective or God cannot avoid being those things.
In energodynamic balance, on each frequency - or you can divide them into 7 or more chakras -, there must be strong will. In their simplest and initial form, each frequency is separate, and then, materialism, egoism and idealism are bad, because they are separate and not grounded. For a person, initially represented as ego, it's important to overcome it's tendency to focus on frequency 1. They must watch the nature in it's dynamics, and contemplate on heavens, for their all-encompassing. For a person, who does this by philosophy, they must have rational mind for materials and vision or altruistic perspective on some jobs and situations, representing the heaven. Still, the ego is represented in this final solution, as it cannot be avoided - when they can altruistically share their money, perhaps in special condition or for their children, the first person you can take care of is you. In zen buddism, one might talk about "self-love", and there are some videos with monks explaining this.
When you do not have higher ego, structured dynamics, which is about to bring about your place in higher society where you are driving, given large-enough percentage of people enlightened like you, in your neighborhood and company or government institution, you need a conscious drive to be a person, which would fit there. Ego, it has also a tendency to fight for your social position - not only what you are, but also what you represent in society. It has a competitive drive in capitalist environment (or duty in communist, honour in aristocratic environment). When your "higher" instinct would blend into the whole, and you would make moves unstoppably, unaware of yourself and aware of the others, or where you yourself are nothing but a zero on infinite glass, you would go just through some external situations, until you are depleted and unable to continue. Those ones, who are depleted, lacking the ego, all together form the whole itself. So, logically, the karma is an interplay of the whole, ones and it's subatomic particles, and each frequency, in each position, should yield "true" as it's logical value, being possible and the most, which is possible. So if we assume living in one Universe, with one, unified logic - a discrete criterion to be possible, and then, higher, we imply the law of karma, where each part and the whole are in interplay to enforce each others.
You are yourself naturally the solution you solve, you represent the logic you are about to solve. You cannot decide that your good logic has been solved, if the solution does not affect you. There is only a small statistical consideration as it's inefficient to be only equal. One cannot say your logic is solved if you are not solved. It's naturally pure to keep your own life in your struggles for your higher missions, which can be contributions to others, even paid contributions as you keep the wheels of karma/money rotating, then. You can give it away if you are the statistical part of the distribution of your philosophy, or you can be rich related others, being another statistical part of equally equipped people - this is the luck and the sacrifice, that good philosophy still serves people on statistical basis; you need to also have the left wing to keep this statistics safe and balanced, bringing back the outliers and asking something from your own rich, to support or invest. Left wing, it can be seen as precise calculation, if you assume that it provides some money back to it's statistical basis, leaving you more experimental and less in need for stability. It can also represent the higher chakras, or infinity-frequency, where they make you united, moving in one formation called civilization (or tribe, or utopia). Right wing is the real position you can serve with what is given, here and now. This is also calculable.
Essentially, your ego is working in all three areas - the material (you have pride for your socks, you notice when others have similar ones); the personal (you want to keep your own space and ability) and the social (you play the social games). Initially, we after we are born and grown up, we get this ego as a wholistic combination, and even the left-side should be represented in how the ego seeks pride and shares motivation. Such people are able to survive in society, but they do not go far from their own box, and they do not develop it fast - usually, they come last after you in innovation of anything.
The people in certain phase are overcoming the ego, and what they do:
They observe the ego to see it as one of many possibilities.
They suppress the ego, demanding it to come under other things.
The ego can not be broken or overcome, as it's our base survival instinct. This is healthy to spend some time in temple, monastery or forest, working on your own and getting some food and clothes perhaps as help, but ultimately we cannot win this if we are not able to play the whole society; from factories to big unions. We want to create the whole culture, and this contains many pieces one alone cannot handle. Here, a person needs to choose their roles, and then carefully follow them, and they need to get to higher standards of living, by their own means - this means, for each function of ego, they need to have a corresponding function.
Once you are up to your higher mind, you can see, as in the harmonic (last) bardo, your own meaning and essence as part of the harmonic whole. Then, you can make a conscious implication to keep yourself alive and on good pace - acceleration or growth. You play the social games to create intellectual, financial and governmental circles, where your abilities (pride) and efforts would matter. Your initial ego is as a wholistic union, inseparable - the buddhist quality to develop is to "discern". You suppress this ego only to demand it to let the other parts of you live, but once you see them living, you have more muscles - now, you make the ego conscious, and you re-evoke it in it's new condition; it will find out it was always this, but now it knows each function and the function does not kill the whole. You can call this superego based on Jungian tradition, which is the socially-aware ego.
You can not make fasting an universal quality of life - you fast to make yourself stronger, but you keep the life circle going.