Hello everyone, I think thre are signs I may be having a Kundalini awakening, though in some ways my signs and symtoms are milder then what many report. About a month ago after 25 years of meditation I was running reiki energy through the chakras to try and mop up any trauma and in the middle of the night my crown chakra exploded. This happened within a context of degenerative disc disease in my lower back, and fibromyalgia which I have suffered from for many years. Signs of k awakening are some supernatural events: (ghosts and an alien space ship, and helpful psychic messages) continued crown chakra energy and some energy moving around lower back. lots of tingling and arm kriyas if I go with them, also energy rising in the night.
Just over a year ago I nearly died of Encephalitis (inflammation of the brain) after a brain infection, though escaped with very little lasting damage. I did develop PTSD as the brush with madness and death was so hellish. The ptsd was succesfully treated with EMDR. I have a complex medication profile including anti-seizure medication, and some on and off opiate pain meds, and amtryptiline to temper nerve pain. I think the meds are calming down any really vivid K events, and I am OK with that as i was taking them before the K started. I am not experiencing any big upsurges of trauma, but i am getting energy pushing against my rigid back muscles which is unpleasant and keeping me awake at night. I am ending up doing intense stretches to try and release the muscles which stimulates the K. at night, and then taking meds to clm it back down.
My big question has, anyone else been dealing the K in the context of preceding physical illness, particluarly pain syndromes, and how are they doing finding their way through it.
Love to you all, and it's been good to write this down, and I feel better knowing this community is here.
Richard
Short answer, yes and my daily movement practices and trauma informed body worker has been extremely helpful. Also I let the kriyas happen when they are ready (though I sometimes has to request a time limit...longest so far was 2 full hours).
Longer answer - I have a ton of injuries from severe abuse in childhood, most of which was fully dissociated until K started moving and opening me up. It comes up in waves and the ideas articulated in "Body Keeps the Score" has greatly complemented my understanding of how K is working out the old damages. Maybe check out that book if you aren't familiar already?
I also try to move my awareness into the pain gently and listen. I've found a lot of memories buried in the pain and grief or shame or other strong emotions. And sometimes it's like my body just needs to be heard...then it can release or at least relax for a while.